August 26, 2004
I miss Andy
I went to downtown this afternoon, the last time I went there was almost one month ago. Normaly I dont go to downtown very often, unless I have no food at all and I have to get some food in Pak 'N Save, which is the biggest food warehouse in this city, two of them, both are located near downtown. I decided to hang around for a while, might do some window shopping and I felt like to buy something, but I really could not tell what exactly I'd like to buy. Sometimes I dont have any idea till that certain thing captures my eyes when I'm in the shop. I dont plan to buy that, only I buy it eventually. Frankly, spending time like this is luxury to me, I dont have a damned car, and either walk or taking a bus is such a hassle in this place. No car, no movement. The other reason is it doesn't seem to be necessary at all. Though I like spend time like this, or I could call it's a kind of waste.
It doesn't change so much as I expected, somewhere near the bus centre is under construction for nearly three months I guess, but I still dont have any clue what they are building. Just like the pace of the whole Hamilton city, slow, quiet. I love to watch this, but I dont like to live like this. All the season clothing are for the coming summer, but it's still freezing as hell at night now, short sleeve T shirt, leisure shirt. I tried a pair of jeans, loose style, fading colour wrinkles near the waist in the front, a kind of old colour, I quite like its style, but when I mirrored, I realized that I dont have a pair of shoes could match it, so I put it back. I passed a clothing shop selling hip-hop style dress, I used to be crazy about that certain style clothing, making me feel free, unconstricted,unconventional and unrestrained. I still think it's damned cool, however, I might be too old for this. I have a few clothes like that myself, but I rarely wear them any more. I remember how that young boy looks like in them in the old day.
Hamilton is such a tiny place that you can always meet someone you know when you are on the streets. I met Simon and his gal friend Catherine when I was going out a super market named K-Mart. He's from Shanghai as well, we were classmates in Planet English(my English language School), and now he's studying in a polytechnic school. We said hello to each other and all that crap, I say "all that crap" here, you know, all those conventional greetings you're supposed to make when you meet someone you know, or even you dont know. That's what we call social communication skill. I wanted to buy myself a nice plate, I'm very picky about tableware, nice ones comforts me, and spoil my appetite. You could imagine what a wonderful thing you appreciate your gorgeous plates, bowls, when you have meals. Besides, they make up my low quality meals...or even I prefer eating plates rather than those food.
I remember this guy all of a sudden, Andy, who was my classmate when I was in Planet English as well. Andy comes from Korea, typical sunshine boy, strong shape, wearing a glasses, simple and honest, but not like other phoneys. I like him very much, and he's the only person here that I feel I could say anything to him without reservations, without thinking about those word decorations to please him. I have those constantly friends in Shanghai, all five of them, but only one here. You always need one or two friends like that wherever you are, at least I do. He's the only person that I feel like to smoke, and drink beer with. Normally, I dont smoke or drink too much, but I need to express in those ways in front of my good friends, and Andy is the one. We shared everything each other, my past, his past, and he even talked to me how he made love with a kiwi gal he met in a church one day. We didn't talk too much dirty stuff actually, but we did discuss things in that way sometimes, that was practicing English langs. We both enjoy watching movies, so we often invited one to the other one's house to watch videos rent from vido shops, or playing basketball, being the volunteers in the hospital. We're not standard good boys, but neither are we completely bad boys. After we graduated from Planet English, he went back to Korea to continue his uni study. We lost contact since then, and I never meet someone like him or my other five friends after that. All those around me are phoneys. Sealing off myself again.
I didn't buy anything after all, expect a stupid ruler(don't they have any better one?), that's what I owe my flatmate, I borrowed one from him, but I broke it, just like the umbrella borrowed from my landlord, and I broke it. It seems that I should not borrow anything from anyone.





















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