FishboX - 我怀念的-迷失新西兰

I went to downtown this afternoon, the last time I went there was almost one month ago. Normaly I dont go to downtown very often, unless I have no food at all and I have to get some food in Pak 'N Save, which is the biggest food warehouse in this city, two of them, both are located near downtown. I decided to hang around for a while, might do some window shopping and I felt like to buy something, but I really could not tell what exactly I'd like to buy. Sometimes I dont have any idea till that certain thing captures my eyes when I'm in the shop. I dont plan to buy that, only I buy it eventually. Frankly, spending time like this is luxury to me, I dont have a damned car, and either walk or taking a bus is such a hassle in this place. No car, no movement. The other reason is it doesn't seem to be necessary at all. Though I like spend time like this, or I could call it's a kind of waste.

It doesn't change so much as I expected, somewhere near the bus centre is under construction for nearly three months I guess, but I still dont have any clue what they are building. Just like the pace of the whole Hamilton city, slow, quiet. I love to watch this, but I dont like to live like this. All the season clothing are for the coming summer, but it's still freezing as hell at night now, short sleeve T shirt, leisure shirt. I tried a pair of jeans, loose style, fading colour wrinkles near the waist in the front, a kind of old colour, I quite like its style, but when I mirrored, I realized that I dont have a pair of shoes could match it, so I put it back. I passed a clothing shop selling hip-hop style dress, I used to be crazy about that certain style clothing, making me feel free, unconstricted,unconventional and unrestrained. I still think it's damned cool, however, I might be too old for this. I have a few clothes like that myself, but I rarely wear them any more. I remember how that young boy looks like in them in the old day.

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Qi Qiao Jie, The Night of Sevens
Seventh Sister's Birthday
The Night of Skills

falls on the seventh day of the seventh lunar month of the Chinese Calendar and thus is also known as Double Seven Days It is traditional for young girls to demonstrate their domestic arts on this day and to make wishes for a good husband. Of course, that has nothing to do with me. How sad. Well, but I still think it's worth to have a look at the folklore about Chinese Valentine's Day.

The story of Cowherd and Weaver Girl:

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I haven't updated my blog for a few days, since I had to deal with my assignments due this Friday and prepare for that Java test. A pretty intensive week, and after that it's a study recess, two weeks. The Java assignment which is a Chess Game almost drove me mad, I really mean it, for those Java codes, I haven't got any sleep from Tuesday to Friday afternoon after I submitted it in lab, I was crazy. The week before study recess seems to be the busiest time for each student, you can tell when you go to the labs in campus 3 o'clock in the morning, there're still students working on their assignments, that never happen on normal days, and I'm one of them. Really good students never stay overnight the week before exams, they study in normal times, you certainly wouldn't see them 3 or 4 am in the lab. At least that proves one thing, those studnets are not lazy or giving themselves up. You can be unintelligent, but never be lazy, though the first one makes your life hard, but the latter one really can kills you

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我告诉你说：〔我的车子坏了，我走了半小时的路才走到车站。〕
　　本来我以为你会关心说：怎么不坐计程车，你累不累。
　　但，你说：〔反正很近，你也顺便减肥。〕
　　我生气，觉得你不爱我、不关心我。
　　第二天，我发现你留在桌上的你的车钥匙，以及为我准备的丰富早点。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔我想要去北海道、荷兰等国家欣赏那一大片壮观的花海。〕
　　本来我以为你会关心说：你想去哪，我们来计划计划，即使是敷衍几句了事也好。
　　但，你说：〔真是无聊，花大把的银子去那种无聊的地方。〕
　　我生气，觉得你不爱我、不懂我。
　　後来，我发现家里的旅游杂志，不管是国外还是国内的报导，只要是有赏花介绍的那一页，页角就有摺痕，页面就有你的笔记记录。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔我的头发掉的好严重，可是医生都说没怎样，我好怕我会变秃头）本来我以为你会安慰我说：哪有，你头发看来还是很多。
　　但，你说：....

〔你这才知道你的头发乱掉，家里的地板都是你的头发，好脏。〕
　　我伤心，觉得你不爱我、不在乎我。
　　後来，我发现家里的地板少了很多我的掉发，我以为我真的不再掉发了，所以我开始有了不会秃头的自信。
　　但，在你出差的那几天里，我才发现地板的头发又变多了，圾筒里也找到一堆用报纸覆盖住的毛发。
　　
　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　
　　我告诉你说：〔我跟朋友出去，晚上会晚点回来。〕
　　本来我以为你会关心我说：跟谁出去？小心点，记得拨电话或早点回家等问话。
　　但，你说：〔随便你，你高兴就好。〕
　　我生气，觉得你不爱我、不关心我。
　　後来，我在负气拖到半夜３点才回家时，我看到你坐在沙发上的睡容。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔我的大姑妈来了，肚子好痛。〕
　　本来我以为你会安慰我说：忍一忍，一天就过了。
　　但，你说：〔女人真麻烦，受不了。〕
　　我伤心，觉得你不爱我、不疼我。
　　後来，家里的零食柜里多了好多巧克力及红豆，是你买的，但你一直没吃，直到一个月过了，你在我月事的前後一星期却天天煮著红豆汤。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔这是我为你挑选的外套，是从去年换季就买的，藏了一年，现在新的冬天将来，我将这一季的第一股温暖献给你。〕
　　本来我以为你会感性的回答我说：谢谢你，亲爱的，这是我一季的温暖也是一辈子的回忆。
　　但，你说：〔还不是捞换季大拍卖的便宜。〕
　　我伤心，觉得你不爱我、不懂我。
　　後来，冬天过了，春天的脚步走到了五月底，我却还常看见那件｛我认为爱的外套 ，你认为便宜的外套｝穿在你身上，我想了想，数了数，才惊觉那件外套几乎天天伴著你上班下班，出门进门。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔今天主日崇拜的诗歌好好听，让我好感动。〕
　　本来我以为你会关心我说：要不要去问问是哪一本哪一系列的诗，我们去买cd回来听。
　　但，你说：〔每一首歌听来，还不是都差不多。〕
　　我生气，觉得你不爱我、不在乎我。後来，我发现音响里常传出熟悉的音符，ｃｄ架上也多了一片新的诗歌ｃｄ。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔我喜欢吃隔壁街角的那一家的凉面。〕
　　本来我以为你会告诉我说：那我们明天一起去吃好不好。
　　但，你说：〔整天就想著吃，也不想想自己的身材。〕
　　我伤心，觉得你不爱我、不关心我。
　　後来，我发现你常常买很多芝麻酱花生酱及瓶瓶罐罐窝在厨房调一碗又一碗黑抹抹的酱。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我告诉你说：〔我真高兴嫁给了你，你是最好的老公。〕
　　本来我以为你也会开心的回答我说：我也是这堋觉得，你是最好的老婆
　　但，你说：〔嫁了都嫁了不然你还想怎样。〕
　　我生气，觉得你不爱我、不懂我。
　　後来，我在无意中发现你开始会在睡前用卫生纸擦拭著我们床头上那张40寸结婚照然後微笑的望著照片傻笑好久。

　　【我才发现，原来你是爱我的，只不过你不说，这是你爱的方式，跟大家不同。】

　　我想我终於懂了，在你不在乎的外表下，有颗不善用言词达的心，一颗最爱我的心。

I did make a dream last night, a little wacky one. I'm not going to talk too much about it, it might not look like what I could say, or not what you could imagine, but I faintly remember that I was shaking a gal's hand softly when I dreamed, it feels like real I can tell. The annoying thing always happens to me when I have a sweet dream is either I would be waked up by some noise, or I just wake up suddenly for no reason, and my dream is in its best part.

Our group got 7 out of 10 for part 1 of COMP304 group project, not really what we expected, but it can't be very bad. 6 groups, and group 5 got 10 full mark for part 1, their multimedia title is more like an interactive flash website in my mind, but our lecturer feels like it. We can't re-choose another topic, I wish I could insist more on my original ideas about doing 12 signs or 7 world wonders when we were in the first meeting, but they are sort of not very interested in it. The topic we're working on now is also my proposal, which is talking about "video production", since I've learnd it then I mentioned this idea on the meeting, they're interested in it somehow. Now I do feel that it's not really easy to implement it in purely graphical design. Part 2 is given today, and we're going to have another meeting tomorrow morning. I don't have any class on Wednesday.

I've seen the most perfect rainbow on my way home today, a full 180 degrees colourful curve bridged on the sky. I heard about a tale about the rainbow, as it says that if you follow the rainbow from one end to the other, then you could find treasure. I'm going to give it a try, as long as I could fly one day.

"The day after tomorrow" is my current fav movie, I've watched it three times so far. It scares me when I see that giant vortex, everything seems cool, silent, and that's the most scary part of the this movie, then after several seconds, everything is going to be frozen to death. Man kind is such a tiny weak piece in front of the real nature. The storm destoried almost anything, but not people's hope.

I went up 8:20 this morning, it was very nice day, though the ground was still a little wet since it rained a little in the dawn. Frankly, I seldom get up as early as today this semester, one important reason is because it's winter now, cold as hell, and I tell you in the earily morning, and at night it freezes my ass off. I don't have class till 11 am, so I decided to have my hair cut in the morning. I'm very glad whenever I could actually do what I've planned on time.

It's rained for a few days, and my laundry from last week is needed to be washed as soon as possible, I don't have any other fresh clothing to change currently. So I have to do that before Wednesday this week which is my regular shower time. Landlord always gets up the earliest in the house, so the laundry machine was working for him when I went to brush my teeth. Landlord makes a rule about the usage of laundry machine, stupid one in my mind. There's a sheet on the wall aganist the machine, which says: Since the machine doesn't work very well sometimes, and to prevent its engine from overheating, it only can be used one time each day! Then in today's case, I only can wash my dirty clothing tomorrow if I'm lucky to get the machine first, we also have other 6 students want their laundry problems solved. It became a competition somehow.

I went to downtown by bus, and I can't remember when was the last time I took bus to go to downtown, I don't go to downtown as many times as I did last year. That's could be an evidence that I'm becoming lazier and lazier, which is not a very good sign at all. I had my hair cut at the Korea barbershop located in downtown, I always go to there when I want have my hair cut. I don't feel like changing haircut shop very often, since once I'm used to a barber's work, then I'm used to it for a long time might till that person leaves or the haircut shop relocates to someplace else where I couldn't find. A Korean couple run this haircut shop, the husband can't speak English very well, but he has better reputation than his wife whose work I'm used to. I can't speak any Korean, I think I do need a person could better understand what I really mean to my hair style, seriously, you don't allow too many people deal with your hair unless they help to have your hair cut. The wife was not there, only the husband. He told me that she would come to the shop 11 am, that was too late for me, and actually I'm not mind trying his work too much, well you know, if you really want your hair cut, then you have to trust the person who's going to cut your hair. He got my hair satisfied anyway. It costs $10 as usual.

In the presentation, our "group convenor" turned up and asked me"who's going to do the presentation", that killed me. Debra, Varonia and me did the presentation, which was not too bad, though Debra felt a little nervous in her turn. I know that girl she spent a lot of efforts on her part, she did much much better than our "group convenor" who was sitting in the seat when we were doing the presentation in the front. Shame of him.

I didn't get on very well with my second STAT226 tutorial, and there're only 10 days before I have to submit the first JAVA assignment which is a real disaster to me. I don't even know how should I get it started..

I'm doing bad...

Would I have a dream tonight..

It's rained all day, showering, terribly as hell. You could never see such a pouring in Shanghai, at least I haven't seen yet. Only in this island, with such a fickle weather, the rain behaves violently different. Once it rains, the garden outside becomes boggy, puddle everywhere, and the path paved by bricks is almost half inundated. I have to pay double attention to those bricks when I walk on them, since one step I make wrong, the dirty wet mud will splash on my feet, or I may almost fall because it's very slippery. Actually I have to go to the kichen or the toilet through that stupid brick path when it rains, unless I have gumboot, then I could walk in the water. I dont care too much about raining, but I do hate raining like that.

I curse this weather.

I was praying it could stop for a while, just in the case that I was going to have a meeting with my group members to discuss the 10 mins presentation for tomorrow. The rain stopped on time, and I was not late. On the way to school, I saw the wired scene that might only you could see in New Zealand, there was great sunshine on the top of my head, and the sky which was not very far away from where I was walking was almost entirely obscured by dark cloud moving towards me. I bet I should run fast, or I got wet. I saw the rainbow in the distance.

Only Debra and Varonica turned up, well, actually we didn't expect our "group convenor", not indeed at all, to attend this meeting, since he didn't attend our meetings for several times. We complained in our report to the lecturer. I've had a few group works so far, and I have to say, I never meet such an irresponsible group leader or kiwi student so far! Anyway, three of us arranged the process of the presentation, and I'm going to cover half of the ppt. Gals are very democratic actually, they made agreement on the amount of work that I'm supposed to do. nnn...... I'm not very good at explanation, but I'm glad to do my work. I feel like working with them and discussing with them. They all International students, Debra is from China and Varonica is from Indonesia, I dont feel too much presure when talking with them in English. They both are good students, they give me good impression. I'm not talking their personal appearance here, but their personality, and at least they do their work seriously, I can trust.

I figured out another way to make myself feel a day longer then it actually is. I had dinner very earily today, which gave me more time between after dinner and before sleep. Though it didn't rain tonight, but it was still wet, especially the cement floor in the kitchen, I almost fell once. Not too many choices for my dinner, potato, carrot, and chicken nibbles. I bought 10KG potato pack, $4.89, much cheaper than those 3KG, $4 pack, but those potatoes just seem to be digged out from the field, wrapped by mud. Peering potatoes always takes much time, and the naked potatoes look so lovely in white.

I'm going to have my hair cut tomorrow morning, it's too long and messy. I'm missing my braid that I used to have once more

那片笑声让我想起我的那些花儿
their laughter reminds me those flowers
在我生命每个角落静静为我开着
they bloom for me silently every corner in my life
我曾以为我会永远守在她身旁
I used to believe that I would be with her forever
今天我们已经离去在人海茫茫
but now, we've gone, fading in the crowd

她们都老了吧？
they are grown, aren't they?
她们在哪里呀？
where are they today?
我们就这样各自奔天涯
we keep walking away like we never meet before

啦……想她。
la la la...... I'm missing her
啦…她还在开吗？
la la la...... is she still who she used to be?
啦……去呀！
la la la...... I have to keep going!
她们已经被风吹走散落在天涯
scattered petals are flying with the wind

有些故事还没讲完那就算了吧
let those unfinished stories be
那些心情在岁月中已经难辨真假
the truth becomes hazy as time goes by
如今这里荒草丛生没有了鲜花
now the weeds overgrown here, no fresh flower anymore
好在曾经拥有你们的春秋和冬夏
nevethless, I still have the past we spent before

啦……想她
la la la....... I really miss her so much
啦…她还在开吗？
la la la....... where is she up to now?
啦……去呀！
la la la...... I only can stop for a while
她们已经被风吹走散落在天涯
there's no coming back anyhow

她们都老了吧？
they have changed a lot, haven't they?
她们在哪里呀?
what are they doing now?
我们就这样各自奔天涯
we have different ways in front of us

where have all the flowers gone？
where the flowers gone？
where have all the young girls gone？
where did they all gone？
where have all the young men gone？
where the soldiers gone？
where have all the graveyards gone？
where have all they gone..

I always feel like watching beautiful things, ppl all enjoy appreciating beautiful things. I usually read at level 3 in the library where I can find some books about art design, advertisement, and photography. Those silent images are not in any action, not animation, they can't speak, but they are speaking to you, in some way.

The history of camera sounds very interesting. In Germany, Jihann Heinischulze, a professor of the university of Altdorf, found by accident that silver nitrate darkened when the light touch it for long period of time. But it was not until 1826 that a French lithographer-inventor, Joseph Nicéphore Niépce, applied recent discoveries about light-sensitive compounds and finally supplied the missing element. Niépce coated a sheet of pewter with an asphalt solution, inserted it in an artist's camera obscura . After an exposure of eight hours he succeeded in making the world's first photograph: a dim, fuzzy image of his view of courtyard buildings in Southern Francefrom his window.

The exposure time was reduced to 20 minutes in 1984, which means the models had to stand there without any obvious muscle for twenty mins.. The left picture is the first photo in the world, certainly it can't be compared with the high resolution, quality photos today, but this first one has the longest history.

There's always a story behind every phohto, the pictures speak themselves. Sometimes I wonder what another person has been through, I wish I could see what another pair of eyes see, which must differ from what I can get, though we target one same thing. I find sth photoblogs which have all kinds of photos following, hope you could enjoy them. Standing on other ppl point of views, in different angles, you can see something in more various perspectives.

c h r o m a s i a
[daily dose of imagery]
shutterbug : photographs by tracey
CHROMOGENIC.NET
heather champ
emptyPictures
Photo Poco
quarlo -- photos -- new york city

女孩说我爱你，男孩笑了。女孩又说我真的爱你，男孩还是笑。女孩说你根本不爱我，男孩沉默了，女孩哭着离开了，跑的很远很远。男孩站在原地，怔怔地，他自言自语到，其实我也爱你，只是不知道怎么爱你。

　　女孩倒在秋千上，男孩用力地推啊推啊。
　　男孩篮球比赛，女孩叫破了嗓子，第二天依然出现在男孩面前说昨天你真逊。
　　女孩说我要最漂亮的那朵，男孩奋不顾身地爬上树，然后遍体鳞伤地对女孩说给你。
　　男孩的头上出现了一点点的红色，女孩紧张半天却还说着我才不在乎。
　　女孩说我累了，男孩蹲下身子，说上来吧，我背你。

　　男孩一次成绩超过了女孩，女孩心底高兴依然说下不为例。
　　女孩第一次学滑板，摔地体无完肤，男孩一边骂着小傻瓜，一边用手小心地擦拭着伤口。然后眼眶中满是眼泪。
　　男孩在全校获奖，女孩摇摇头说你还差点。
　　女孩知道男孩喜欢她，所以她不会自己开口。
　　男孩知道女孩喜欢他，可是他不知怎么开口。
　　女孩说我们明天去海边。男孩今天就搞到了所有的地图。
　　男孩想喝一口开水，女孩为他捧来了整桶饮料。
　　女孩想要一颗星星，男孩为她搬来了整颗地球。
　　男孩说明天想喝咖啡。女孩今天就买好了所有的品种。

　　女孩说我不会跟自己不喜欢的男孩要求太多。男孩说还好你对我要求很少。
　　男孩说我不会让自己不喜欢的女孩坐上自己的单车。女孩笑了，还好你从没有把我当女孩看待。
　　女孩说如果我遇见喜欢的男孩，一定用眼神杀死他。男孩说怪不得你从没有对我放过电。
　　男孩说如果我遇见我喜欢的女孩一定背着她满世界地跑。女孩说还好你背我的路程只够地球半径的四分之一。
　　女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定是最棒的，他一定会骑着白马来找我。男孩说现在已经不允许私自贩卖马匹。
　　男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定比关之琳还关之琳。女孩说关之琳已被列入老人名单内了。

　　女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定要会在新年的十二点打电话对我说我爱你。男孩说这样的电话费会很贵，相当于一个世纪。
　　男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定要会在我沮丧的时候给我安慰。女孩说现在连个保姆都会给你安慰，因为你给她钱。
　　女孩说如果他爱我，就算我到天涯海角，他都找的找我。男孩说那你一定要找个地理知识很好的人，不然你没有找到倒把自己弄丢了。
　　男孩说如果她真的爱我，一定会知道我在想什么。女孩说那你一定得找个占卜师。因为她连你有没有藏私房钱都知道。
　　女孩说你们男孩都不浪漫。男孩说因为我们都没有钱去浪漫。

　　男孩说你们女孩一天到晚只知道胡思乱想。女孩说因为别的都要花钱。
　　女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定要比我强。男孩说可怜的我只有一次没有超过你的记录。
　　男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定不要太聪明，否则我会迷失方向。女孩说啊，可惜我总是和你在极端的两头。
　　女孩说长大以后我要当个侦探，比福尔摩斯还厉害。男孩说那你一定需要一个比华生还华生的人。
　　男孩说我长大后一定要当一个国家领导人，发动全宇宙最伟大的战争。女孩说世界不会接受第二个希特勒的，就像没有中国人爱日本人那样。
　　女孩说你的英语很pool，男孩就在暑假报了五个暑期培训班。

　　男孩说女孩不够淑女。女孩暑假逼着自己去学习礼仪。
　　女孩知道男孩很在乎她的话。所以她想总有一天男孩会跟她说的。
　　男孩知道女孩很在乎他的话。所以他想即使不说女孩也是会明白的。
　　女孩认识了比男孩高的男孩，男孩说我爱你。女孩笑着拒绝了。
　　男孩认识了比女孩好的女孩。女孩说我爱你。男孩笑着拒绝了。
　　比男孩高的男孩说你在等什么？女孩说他会说的。
　　比女孩好的女孩说你在等什么？男孩说她明白的。
　　女孩说花都谢了。男孩说它还会开的。

　　男孩说花又开了。女孩说它还是要谢的。
　　女孩说我要走了，去美国。男孩说听说外国男孩都很帅。
　　男孩说我会留下，因为我热爱中国。女孩说还是中国的美女最多。
　　女孩去机场的时候男孩送了她。女孩希望男孩留下她。可是男孩没有。
　　男孩留在了中国。男孩希望女孩留下，可是他没有说。
　　女孩哭了，说我一定找个高鼻子，蓝眼睛的。
　　男孩笑了，说祝你好运。
　　女孩走了。
　　男孩哭了。

　　女孩不停地写信。男孩不停地回信。
　　一年后，女孩回来了。男孩去机场接她。可是身边已多了一个女人。
　　男孩长大了。女孩没有。
　　女孩说祝你幸福。男孩说谢谢。
　　女孩又走了，带着眼泪。男孩身边的女人说弟弟，我们走吧！
　　男孩又哭了。她一定会比我幸福的。
　　手术台前，男孩痛苦地抓住医生说一定要让她幸福。
　　男孩坟前，女孩悲伤地抓住丈夫说他原本可以给我幸福的。
　　丈夫抱着她，轻轻地。丈夫就是最后的那个医生。
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
　　男孩从没有对女孩说过一句我爱你。因为他一直以为女孩明白。
　　女孩从没有对男孩说过一句我爱你。因为她一直以为男孩会说。
　　等男孩真正想说的时候女孩走了。
　　等女孩真正想说的时候男孩死了。
　　男孩还是一个人，女孩却是两个人。女孩一直以为男孩是两个人。男孩一直以为女孩是一个人。
　　女孩问男孩下辈子你要几个人生活？男孩笑着说两个人，我和我爱的人。
　　男孩问女孩下辈子你要几个人生活？女孩笑着说一个人，因为我爱的人从没有跟我说过她爱我